I cry out in the darkness forever to be free
and I cry out so my loneliness won't get the best of me
I can see a brave tomorrow when I might just leave this town
after all these days and nights of anxious sadness left me tired and doubting
everything I thought I'd found
apprehension strange letters found two kittens on the tracks
got my picture taken twice today when are you coming back
I can see a brave tomorrow don't let this spaceship bring me down
after all these days and nights of anxious sadness left me tired of doubting
everything I've got
my love
my life
not this time
I'm found
this one's for this girl I know
tree bound bug locked stare I know
one hundred and forty one days no rest
less i miss one single kiss
there's a tree fort on this island on the river by oaks park
we found it on our bikes and had fake fights until dark
this one's for this girl I know
tree bound bug locked stare I know
I'd be a fly around your head or a pin in your neck
if you knew which you liked best
well I looked into the distance you said all I know is what I see
sincerity not guessing at our own humanity
but I'm still driving up and down I-5 figuring what's fucked
counting on the distance between underground justice and handmade luck

she said i'd really like to but i got a lot to think and write about why don't you go
back home and i'll stop by tomorrow she said you know i'd really like to but i've got
so much to think and write about why don't you go back home and i'll stop by
tomorrow and we'll clean your room pretend you're here pretend you're here take
you to the corner i'll take you out for drinks i'll take you to my room and you can
take on me i have got it figured out hold on one second i have got it figured out
wish i was riding bikes with you i've sat down in the middle of this mess i've
made of letters and clothes wish i was anywhere with you i've sat down in the
middle of this mess i've made of letters and if you were here pretend you are not
2,000 miles away

when i was fourteen i fell in love with her in metal shop she said kaia come pray
with me we sat on her bed and we held our hands together she told me i
needed god i told her i just needed her when i was fifteen i liked to start fires and
drive my parents truck to the jasper store things were out of control i couldn't't
stop to see others the ones like me were not far from reach when i was sixteen
she said to me you have a demon possession i said what the fuck does that
mean she said she couldn't be my friend those were the worst days of my life
and all the hick boys loved to harass me so i flaunted my hatred of the flag my
mother cried when i shaved my head

she wants to embrace her, however the world will change She wants to feel, but
she can only describe it Don't let the monster stay under the bed , don't' let the
monster stay under the bed Hey you, say what she needs to hear It's just like
Donna said it depends where you're at in your head you can find what you need
maybe it's finding a very secret place to hide your copy of Rubyfruit Jungle
maybe you're writing your own There's a wig wearing boy named psychic Al
what's he's looking for, he won't find in school He stays up late, flipping through
tapes Listening to songs he's heard a hundred times, but nothing's there Hey you,
say what he needs to hear Queer sex is great, it's fun as shit don't worry Jesus
is dead and God don't exist and swearing is fun, it's funner than piss, that's it's
stupid is a cruel and classist myth. Queer sex is great, it's fun as shit, Don't kill
yourself cause people can't deal with your brilliance Sometimes I can't remember
why i want to live Then i think of all the freaks and i don't want to miss this It's just
like Donna said it depends where you're at in your head.

i'm scared to leave the house, i'm scared to go to sleep And when i do, i wake up
feeling scared My girlfriend cuddles me and holds me when i cry I tell her that i'm
scared,ask if she thinks i'll die She tells me i'm OK, I don't believe her but it makes
me feel better anyway Can't get myself to eat, trick myself and watch TV Even
when it works, I end up puking scared My girlfriend cuddles me and holds me
when i cry I tell her that i'm scared, she says that i won't die She tells me i'm OK
but i don't believe her, but it makes me feel better anyways.

It's where the obvious turns dumb and clarity turns off
I'm standing somewhere near the back of the room
I'm on her left I'm in betwen her
she's amazing her words save me
she holds her head as if it's truth
where the last one passed me by
read about her in the papers and on TV
they say she's outspoken
many people will try to destroy her
but if she were to stop I stop we all stop
she's amazing her words save me
she holds her head as if it's truth
I'm sorry my mistake do I sound strange
I always wanted to make sense I fell flat
I have in I gave in you cannot trust all lies
I always wanted to make sense do I lose...
she's amazing her words save me
she holds her head and it's truth

Tiking in time with the hand grenade, its prize, it's charm. Barrels on without a chain, This chance it starts
From where i stand i could see it all, i do, i don't. Make up my mind it's getting late, i will, i won't. It has something
more to give, it has everything to say. The bleed of her heart, the bat of her eyes, she's gotta be strong and she knows
how to fight. She has to know the way i guess (?) She has to go the way i guess (?)
As soon as it finishes she breaks the ground, it's sharp, it's grayish (?) She would've been anything she could have
been it all. From where i stand i can see it all, i will, i won't. Make up my mind what i'm about, i do, i don't. Well it
has something more to give, well it has everything to say...........are.

they tell you it's a lie your word against his so tell me who's right and how was
he supposed to know i know what to do with this body i had on a polyester
basketball uniform and i can't forget this if i try i know what to do with this body

i'm afraid walking down the street holding hands with my girlfriend that some cop
is gonna arrest me (uh, excuse me ladies) sometimes i think i've even done
something wrong invite me in show me around make me feel safe i am illegal i'm
nearly gone i have this vivid memory of being in a boat with a friend i was 11 i
said girls can't get married to each other i remember thinking how fucked up that
was you say you have a ban on affection did i hear you right? what do you think
cuz i'm not sure whether i didn't get that job (we hired someone else) because my
hair's parted on the wrong side or because im a flaming s

______ we dont' wanna hear about it, hurts your ears to see the sound, didn't want to make you fear, its not that you
would understand cause all you know is what you think, you have a grasp on something. When you're holding on to me,
i am nothing again (?), I don't go where i am told, i dont need ___________________ Space (?) forever, it's just boring(?)
______________, it's just here for us to take. Figure for me ___________, dont' assume I matter, it's not any differnt than
what you see, for you stand inside her (?) you break my neck you pull my thraot until you feel it snap. I did it to him, i killed
it all (off?), looks at me like i'm the trap (?)

it's summer the hairs grown in on my upper thigh just like so much corn in late july
but is it summer i'm shaking and my feet are bitter cold i need some fries to go
with that shake i need to grease back my hair or let it whip in my face let it whip
my face i love you baby i love you we'll stock up on canned goods and move to
the woods we'll find a piece of land and quit this fucking band i love you baby i
love you

whole lot of things to say but i can't seem to hold on moved away it pulls me back
to what i miss like talking talking talking to the mad queen about emotional evolution
well i do what i do and i don't need you t o tell me what's in and tell me who's cool
i've got no money left and the mean world around me and i don't need that girl to
watch TV with she's just the same girl over and over and over and you can go
back to your boyfriend half of this is me and i'm not sure who the other is she
maybe came from all of you this house is warm i think i'll take a nap just like
Freewheel, Freewheel!!!

Takes notes from a movie box Make a list of what I need Remember who you are,
remember who you are But then, I can't feel good about anything And just when i
get something started I read or hear something, that makes me forget My
confidence or honesty What are my motives are they selfless enough, Are they
righteous, righteous enough? Then before I get started, I get all fucked up Can't
get sick of thinking about meaning or language or anything that gets me hot Make
up who you are, it makes up who you are Then I found myself dancing alone in
my room I was writing in my journal, playing records When i felt my shoulders
slide from side to side I found the bass in my hips Being alone brings courage and
strength of mind Take off your shirt and watch TV Remember who you are, and
make up who you are But then I just want a public place Where girls can meet
each others stare Sometimes that;s what it takes just to know you're alive To feel
yourself burning just from some girl's stare My that's a strange costume Slip your
fingers under my belt Put up signs to make up who you are Send out signals
telling who you are Transmit messages about who you are No matter who you are

Tried to warn my neighbors about my inner plot
The girl next door with no conscience what a dreadful thought
Now I'm a politician, not smart enough to lie
I'll cut the space program, and have your check by 5
Please don't forget me, cause I was bound to lose
She said my greatest strength, is my greatest weakness
Some things are probably better kept to myself
But some scared part of me tells everything as if that could help
There is not quiet, no quiet is rewarded, inertia keeps you moving or standing still
Stay alive carpenter, you can laugh if you fail
Don't get behind the gun, just to hope you get killed
A girl with no conscience, fuck right you should be scared
Don't be a whore

My mom says she loves me but i know it's not yes yes yes she does cause she
doesn't treat me like you treat someone you love, you love But i can choose my
own family, i'll take one Uncle Phranc She's seen what it is to feel , and be called
crazy, I love my Uncle Phranc She told me if I go in the ocean, i've got to know it's
the shark's world She told me not to fuck with straight girls, she told me not to
take pills, not to take pills Take one Uncle Phranc, Take one Uncle Phranc My mom
says she loves me, but i don't think it's love cause she only loves me when i act
just like she does and that's emotional blackmail.

what i should have been was way too possible it's fucked up to think like this and
i'm waiting for her thoughts to kill me only she's not having a thought past thinking
about why she was born this way this way trying not to forget her face before
remembering anyways it's the kind of structure that breaks with everyone still on
the ground you don't' wat to let it hit you full force nothing let to guard you don't
want me to know you never wanted me this way this way you never wanted me
anyways she wants to forget it she wants to forget it

You take off that ________, say i fucked up everything, i want nothing from you You superbutchpunkassmotherfucker, lay
down between my legs, come up here and say that to my face, say it like you mean it...You take off that _______-, say i
fucked up everything, i ask nothing from you. you superbutchpunkassmotherfucker, lay down between my legs, come up
here and say that to my face, say it like you mean it anyway..... ____________________________ your face to the
ground, do you see god? (?)

Don't tell us we only care about the dykes and fags, Don't try and find fake
reasons to hate us Some people get it, lots more people need it Freedom is
freedom, it's for all or it's all for nothing it's been hours it's on strike I'll turn it
around i'm a contradiction I don't want to be a man you can be what you want
with me What you want it what i want you to tell me to boss you around I want to
watch you lose control sometimes I'm the Fonz mostly i'm a puppy you're sexy
boss me around please i want you to You can be what you want with me What
you want is what i want you to tell me to boss you around sitting in the back of
the not room enough for me to turn around and get the fuck away from their
stupid interrogations it's been hours or 5 years no reunion that implies a thing that
never existed something that never existed hey you're sexy come here and boss
me around chain me to the bed now unchain me from the bed it's what we
choose to say, and how certain things are said And what we choose to say, and
how certain things are said